HAHAHAHA This just made my whole motherfucking night.
Sometimes, I can’t justify our relationship in my head. I had the biggest crush on you. It was crazy, I can still remember how it felt in my chest. It felt like a fire. It was painful to be around you. It physically hurt having you hug me not be able to have you. The day I did finally have you felt like a cheap rip off to what I did want from you. It was short, passionate, and not what I thought or wanted it to be. I thought it would never happen. The fact that it did while your heart was still with the another hurt more than liking you. That want I felt for you, is something you will never be able to feel for me. I will always be that easy to have place filler for you. I couldn’t deny you even though it wasn’t how I wanted it to be. I wanted you, regardless of the way I got it. Over and over again it happened. I felt hope that this could maybe last. When it became apart to me that you weren’t going to let go of her for me, is when I let go of you for new beginnings. Hope you’re happy with her and all is well.